My True Test....

Today is the first day I have ever fasted and made it through the entire day. I woke up at 7am to go to a doctor's appointment. And now it is 6:30pm and I have had no food. I had a coffee with soy milk and honey which was about 114 calories. I then did yoga for an hour and 45 minutes so I burned around 288 calories. Which leaves me at a net of zero calories. 


During yoga though I was getting so dizzy but I pushed through. It was kind of a rush to feel that way. Then I had to go to the store after that, and that's when my true test began. I was walking down the street and I smelt all of this food, smells surrounded me. It felt so good to know that I once again have control. I was talking to myself in my head looking in these windows watching people eat and smelling the food saying "I don't need you, no, I will not give in. I'm stronger than you, and I will win." Ana has taken control of me again, and it's so amazing. Hearing her voice controlling my ever thought, she keeps pushing me forward, reminding me how much further I have to go. And now, I'm sitting in my dorm room and my roommates boyfriend is in here eating a BLT and french frys. It smells so good. If I feel like I can't take it, I will only give into a Tbsp of honey. & that's it. When I go out with my friend later so she can eat, I will resist every temptation that is thrown my way. I will win, I will succeed! I WILL BE THIN! I WILL HAVE THE PERFECT BODY. Mark my words! 


Hello hunger pains...I've truly missed ignoring you!


xo ~S.




EDIT @6:36pm -


I have not changed my stats because I weigh the same...another reason why ana needs to kick my ass! 18  more pounds to go until my 2nd goal weight. but so I wont freak myself out I have 8 more pounds to go until my first goal weight! I'm so close, yet so far away.