I had a doctor's appointment early this morning and I had to get up at 7am. By the time I was coming back to my dorm my stomach hurt so bad and was growling and making awful noises. People were looking at me so strangely trying to figure out what was wrong. When I got back I went to go eat. I didn't have much. I had 3 bites of scrambled eggs, and 2 bites of yogurt and granola with a glass of water. That is pretty much nothing, and I might as well have not eaten at all. But #1I felt like I was going to puke and #2 I felt so shitty afterwards. I felt like all of a sudden my jeans didn't fit anymore and my shirt felt tighter.
Every time I eat this happens....so why do I continue to do it? I can't go back to where I was. I'm finally back in the 130's. Thank the lord!! So...as of today...I'm done eating :)
It's going to be harder this weekend when I'm with my boyfriend....I'm looking forward to being with him...but I'm not looking forward to having to eat, or even being watched. He did catch on to the fact that I haven't been eating...so that hasn't been a good thing. :(
Anyways, I'll write later!
xo ~S.
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